I'm in that pour your heart out type a mood.

It's funny how something so perfect can seem so wrong at the same time. I don't really understand how this can happen but I'm sure that someday soon it will all make since. I'm not quite sure what tomorrow has in store for me, but i know what i want today. I wish I couls explain to you the feeling that I get when you laugh at me, or the way we can talk and it never gets old. I want you to know that I'm here. I'm waiting. And as far as I know, I'll be waiting here till your ready. Ready to face this world head on together. Even though distance maybe a challange, God can pull us through. As long as he is on our side, we've got nothin to lose. Cause sometimes I feel like you're all i got, and others we're barely hangin on. Let's try this and see, let's watch as we fly. I'm not movin, so come on take my hand we're halfway there.

Summer...

As this summer is already started... It's been amazing. It's a very different summer from all the rest. My future is in front of me now more than ever, and that in it's self is kinda a scary thing. To say that i'm excited is an understatement, but to say that i'm nervous is one too. I've already had to make choices this summer, and to be quite honest i was not a fan of making those decisions,but i had to.

Cedarville in the fall. It's sooo unreal. I've been talking about it for the past year, and now i'm about to do it. Ha. I don't think that it's actually hit me that I'm graduated as of 3 weeks ago.

This summer will be filled of memories that will last a lifetime, and freinds that maybe for the last time i will hang out with, and others who i'll be with forever. This summer will be the summer that changed my life.

Memory 9 Emily Crawford

So i met this girl and it was her senior year, never would i ever have guessed it would have come to this. She was always at the places i was, and so i felt that the only thing to do was be freinds with her since i saw her all the time. Suprisingly her going to college brought us closer and we soon became very good friends. I'm not really sure what life without her would be like, and i don't think that i really want to know to be honest. So many memories together that i can't even list them cause their are just to many to be able to count. Hey Emily, i love you and remember yes, i am a black girl in disguise, and yes you can stand under my umbrella anytime you want ;)

Memory 8 Jr. Sr.

Oh my word this was the time of my life chillin with the besties and just having a ball. To say that i wish that i could be in their class is for sure an understatement. Over the years some of my best friends have come from that class. Without them i am not sure what i would do, they have gotten me through some of the roughest times in my life. Everyone came over to my house after to party, and let me tell you i was stressed, but in the end it was all worth it :)

Memory 7 Spring Break 09

Spring break 2009!!! Florida, going to see my grandparents a boring experience that I don't look forward to. But that year, Tiffany(middle) and Korinna (right) were going to be 30 min from me. YES PLEASE!! Laying on the beach, collecting shells, swimming, taking pictures, and witnessing God's creation at it's best. This for sure was a Spring Break that I will remember for awhile. Ha oh and ordering the most epic chocolate cake for room service ever! Oh my word the best chocolate cake I have her had, we legit fought over it, that's how good it was! Chilling with friends and family is what I love to do. I think that's why this trip was soo much fun!

Memory 6 The Worship Group

During my sophomore and junior year, like any other teenager I was trying to find myself. This group of people helped me discover who I was, and helped me to understand music in a different way. Josh (who is not in the picture) helped me more than anything else. He showed me that music is more than words on a page and notes in an order. He helped me realize that music is an overflow of the soul, and that's what really makes people enjoy it. Krista (who is on my left) is totally an older sister to me. I talk to her and she gives me advise and she totally understands what I am going through. Even though she has moved nothing has changed in our relationship. That more than anything means alot to me. Don't get me wrong I miss them alot, but I know that deep down inside they are with me in every single thing that I do.

Memory 5 My Smith Sister! :)

Ever since freshman year i have been forced to have a locker next to this girl. She always talked to me and I always talked back and she was a super sweet girl. I never ever in a million years thought that she would be the "peanut butter" to my "jelly" but she is. We have grown closer than I ever wanted to my senior year, cause honestly i went into this year with the attitude that i didn't need to make another friend becasue i was going to college. Clearly God had other plans, because i could not imagine this year without her. From the fights in english class, to the boys, to the creeper in english, to the sweater vest teacher we have been through it all together. Ask me if i regret any of it and i will tell you no not for a second. If anything i wish that it could have been like this before now. Why you ask ,because i now feel like i have met my sister from another mother and quite frankly she has the same last name as me! I love you miss raechel smith with all my heart, and no matter what happens you will always be the "peanut butter to my jelly sandwich".